Round 9 - Cancer Is Awful, But My God Is Awesome

If you had one wish what would you wish for has always been a fun question to ponder. Some of the most common answers are:

• Three more wishes
• To be rich
• Perfect health
• Mansion
• Cure for cancer

All of these wishes, I realized are flawed, even the cure for cancer and believe me I hate cancer.

So what is the problem with wishing there was a cure for cancer? Honestly nothing. I praye for a cure, but I have come to realize it's just putting a band-aid on a much bigger problem. All of the brokenness in the world, evil, suffering, pain, disease, hurricanes, tornadoes are all symptoms of a bigger problem. There is hope and He is coming!

One thing, one act of disobedience is the root cause for all that is wrong in the world. What is it? Sin. Sin is the root cause of all the brokenness in and on the earth. Without sin, none of this brokenness would exist. However, sin does exist therefore we have to deal with the consequences of sin.

God rich in mercy, grace and love provided a way out through Jesus Christ. There is a hope that is promised for followers of Christ that truly surpasses our understanding. Hope that cannot be contained by fear, sin, governments or any deceit that the evil one can conjure up. No matter what this life throws at us we know the "Best Life" is yet to come and when we live in this truth, we are truly living in freedom. 

So yes, I like countless others hate cancer and all the other perils brought forth from sin, but I don't live in fear. I live in Christ and His coming reign and His eternal promises to be fulfilled. 

Treatment #9 offered a new side-effect of Neuropathy in both my hands and feet. Which is really crazy because you can think your foot is secure on something and it really isn't. I learned this the hard way in the shower, but blessedly I caught myself before tumbling all the way to the floor. I should have known a special prize was awaiting for me after this treatment since my new talking buddy SB was unable to have her chemo treatment due to an issue with her numbers.

One blessing I did get was that I don't have to take the nausea medicine as much as normal. I have been taking it religiously like clockwork for an entire week, every six hours. However, after a few days I attempted to go without it and I seemed to be okay. Other side-effects seem to be normal, but that's okay with me. I see so many people suffering from harder treatments and other forms of cancer that I would never feel right to complain about my issues.

Another thing I decided was I wasn't going to live in fear of COVID-19 or cancer, so I have been getting the boys as much as I feel able. Shoot I even helped lay sod the Saturday before this treatment. It felt so good to be in the sun and sweating. Work really is a blessing. I can't believe, Lord willing, that I am down to my last three treatments. Especially when I think back to the first one and how I never thought I had eleven more in me.

I am thankful for the friends, family, prayers and Amazing God that have made this journey such an amazing blessing. I am forever blessed because of the closeness this journey has brought to you and God.